I'm My Own Worst Enemy

As I write this, my head is filled with the Pink song…

'I’m a hazard to myself
Don’t let me get me
I’m my own worst enemy
It’s bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don’t wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else’

(Andy, I can just picture you all gathered round laughing at this right now)

It’s so true to me though. I really am my own worst enemy. During the day, my head is filled with all these great intentions and ideas of how I can improve my running and incorporate drills and strength training, etc, but when I get home from work, all my motivation is gone and I just want to flop onto the couch, eat my tea and chill out. Then I wonder why I never get any faster. I need to win the lottery or have a really flexible job where I can work from home so that I can do my training in my own time as and when I please. For example, at around 10.00am every day, I’ll be sat at my desk itching to go for a run but, by the time I get home, I really have to force myself to go out because by then I’m just too tired. I wish I could just run/train when the feeling takes me. Work really does get in the way. I worked from home on Wednesday and, as mentioned in my blog, this enabled me to get in two runs and I also did a bit of yoga too, but I still managed to get in a full seven hours of work. If only I could work from home every day. Not sure the bosses would go for that though.

I also have thoughts of joining a gym in Manchester so that I can do a workout during the day and not encroach onto my evenings but 1) I hate gyms and don’t want to spend money going to one and 2) I feel like by the time I have got there, got changed, showered, got changed again and walked back to work, there is very little time left for the actual workout. Again, I’m making excuses – I'm a hazard to myself!

If I annoy myself this much, I feel really sorry for the rest of you who have to listen to this. Just tell me to shut up in future and do us all a favour. (Seriously Andy, stop laughing!)

Plan: Concerted effort – no sitting on the couch before 8.00pm in future:

4.30 - get home from work
4.45 – run
6.00 - warm down
6.15 - strength exercises/drills/yoga
7.00 – shower
7.15 - cook tea
7.45 - eat tea at the kitchen breakfast bar
8.00 – go into the living room and chill!

I actually wrote this part of my blog whilst I was on lunch at work so by the time I get home later I’m sure it will be more like:

4.30 - get home from work
4.45 – force myself to go for a run
6.00 - warm down in a hurried fashion as I'm starving
6.15 - shower
7.00 – throw tea in microwave/order take away delivery
7.15 – sit on backside on couch
7.30 – eat tea whilst sitting on backside on couch
8.00 – fall asleep on couch


Turning to tonight’s run, surprisingly it wasn't a case of having to force myself out the door.  I did get a little delayed getting out as I was nattering with a neighbour but, once out, all was well.  We just had a steady run along to the top barn then up onto George's Lane.  I got chatting to a bloke with a couple of dogs half way up 'The Driveway' so it was getting later and later and I decided that I'd better cut my run slightly shorter as I wanted to try to get home before it got pitch black because I wasn't sure Duncan had charged my head torch.  He keeps using it and 1) not charging it and 2) stretching the head band with his giant head.  I have repeatedly banned him from using it but this ban appears to be falling on deaf ears.

Whilst running along to the barn we stopped to take a picture of a really beautiful but rainy sunset, although, as with most of my pictures, it didn't turn out too well.

Total distance – 4.55 miles

As you are of course dying to know, here's what actually happened this evening:


4.40 - get home from work
4.45 – natter to neighbour
5.00 - go for run
6.00 - warm down
6.15 - glute strengthening session
6.45 – shower
7.00 - cook tea
7.30 - eat tea in the living room whilst typing this blog
7.45 – finish blog and then chill out

So basically it was a bit of a mixture of the two scenarios but I'm happy to say it was more in line with scenario 1 than scenario 2 although it isn't 8.00 yet so there's still time for me to fall asleep on the couch.  Night night!